Dear Diary,

Wide awake at 1am,

All I could see is a million things I’ve tried on my own to hold on to.

I’ve watched myself hold on to things so tight-fisted yet, they in a way or two, find their way out of my tight fists.

Here I was, wondering to myself

“Why though?” I couldn’t stop asking

“Why me?”

I’ve watched myself long to keep things till forever and I lose them

I’ve watched myself try so hard to keep a position yet, it slipped away as though I never worked for it

I’ve watched myself try so hard to make something better for myself at every given opportunity and I as well watched it all go futile!

“Why does it seem like my most treasured gets lost?”

“Why does it seem like all I ever hold on to gets blown by the wind as though it was never there?”

These questions continuously bothered my heart

“You’re too strong “ I heard Him say

“I didn’t bring you out here to help yourself”

“I can’t help you when you’re strong” I heard him say

“Stop trying…let it go”

“Where is your trust?”

That was it!

The answer to all of it; realization hit me

I’ve held on to these things long enough not to see how much I’ve battled for and with them.

I have been trying so hard and have forgotten that there’s only one who can give and take at His will.

I should let them go!