Chronicles…

Sitting down in my room,

I suddenly had flashes and all I could see were a long list of offenses and those behind them.

Pangs of hurts and pain flooded my heart and I could feel anger stirring up within me.

I couldn't tell why but it didn't take me long to break down in tears.

"You're yet to forgive" I heard clearly

That actually surprised me; I mean, I thought I was over it,

I thought I had forgiven and everything pushed behind me but here He was telling me I haven't.

"You forgiving is your healing!". I heard that clearly but then, I was unable to understand what that meant because to me I had forgiven.

As perfect as the Holy Spirit will always be,

He made a way; yes, He did when a very special friend of mine shared me a book on forgiveness by Dag Harward Mills.

Here, I learnt forgiveness as;

• A license to be forgiven; Here I understood better why the Lord’s Prayer reads ‘Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive’. It’s more like a deal saying forgive me only if I forgive the one who has offended me.

• A commandment that must be obeyed

• A path to freedom not just of myself but if the offenders too

• A relief of weights

It was after going through that book that I realized why He said “My forgiving is my healing”

There is no two ways to that! …there never would be

If I don’t forgive, I tend to hold on to what’s past keeping me stagnant and giving the enemy access to my mind through anger, thoughts, bitterness and above all, depression.

I learnt that it is God’s desire for me to be free from every thought that is not His kind of thoughts and one of the ways to keep off thoughts that oppose God’s will for me is to forgive; in other words, it’s God’s desire for me to forgive.

Finally, I learnt the Lord’s Prayer test;

In the book [Forgiveness Made Easy By Dag Harward Mills],

He mentioned that you could list out the name of your offenders while you ask God to forgive you. That way, you indirectly say

“Do not forgive me if I don’t forgive this person”.

That worked for me you know, I found out I still had a few people I haven’t fully forgiven because I saw the difficulty when I got to mention their names, It faded off as I kept going on and on tho.

The summary of it all is that ; I FORGIVE AND I AM FORGIVEN !

Arielle 🕊