Dear Diary,

You’d think I’d abandoned this website,

I thought so too but then recently,

My lover reminded me the purpose of this and asked that I continued with it.

This is basically just an update of what I haven’t actually written about or shared.

So…

Yea!

I’m 22 now🤭

I turned 22 on the 23rd of April; that should be two months ago right?

And I’ll just share what it was like.

Months earlier, my lover had demanded that I made a birthday wish and I’d be honest I had so many things I wanted to just list out; so many things I wanted Him to do for me but I didn’t immediately respond to that. I smiled and told him I’d let Him know when I was ready and of course, he asked that I took my time.

You’d think I was able to figure it out days later but that wasn’t the case.

It was not until a week before the day that I could tell what I wanted ~ what I desired.

No, it wasn’t a car, a house, or all of the things I really desired to have; I had a wishlist but I certainly didn’t present  anything on that list.

I remember waking up one morning and telling Him; this is what I wanted (stating it to him); I’ll share a tiny bit of what I wanted ~ I asked to be celebrated from His place

I remember Him telling me that a prove of it would be that it’ll rain on that day.

I was praying,

I was all round expectant of what He had for me whilst He filled me in on what the journey would be like.

Fast forward to the 23rd of April, 2024, 

At exactly 12am, I began my usual ritual of ‘walking in’ alongside my friends who had gathered and although I didn’t feel all of the goosebumps I was expecting and it felt as though everywhere was just ~ still. 

I felt to stop but it was as though I could hear Him remind me that He was present and so we persevered and all of a sudden it was as though there was this  stillness that was more than it was earlier. 

It felt like the whole room was surrounded and I felt the warmest hug I’ve ever felt and I couldn’t help but break down.

It felt as though my heart was being massaged and all I found myself saying was I love you Lord…

My friends were still praying 

This happened for a while

Until…

“Happy Birthday Bride”

These words as softly as I heard them, softened my heart even more and I broke down yet again in His arms

This time He began to speak and declarations kept coming.

And like a flash, He took me back to 21;

21…

 I had turned to go through the street of 21 but could see only a tattered road that one couldn’t pass through but looking ahead, I could see a cross and the one beside me said “don’t take your eyes off the cross and you won’t notice the road”

I did 

And yet again I could see a replay of all that happened through 21

Filled with scars, hurts, laughs, cries, love and death. But the cross was the focus

And now…

I saw yet again

I was right before the cross; yes, the cross that seemed far and I could hear Him say again “CARRYING THE CROSS, BEARING THE MARKS”

And just when I thought it was over,

I heard the cloud bark violently and I tell you it rained for hours that day.

And all this little girl could say was thank you,

All she could do was cry endlessly in love and thanksgiving in the hands of her lover.

I am proud to say I am a finished woman

I am married and I can as well say I know my groom

It’s something I’m grateful for.

Did I tell you I had a memorable celebration,

I have never been celebrated before like I was that day and I am grateful 

To my Groom,

Family,

The friends He gave me

Yours Truly,

A Finished Woman❤️‍🔥🥰